Woke up in a much better mood today, actually got some sleep last night, other than Derek trying to cuddle all night lol but I am not a cuddler!! I am hanging out with Reiko and Kai this morning and enjoying it so far. Kai is in a good mood and listening well today, he slept well last night as well too. I am trying not to feel to discouraged today, I weighed myself and I have gained 3 lbs, this is after I have been eating really good, all within my calories/fat/protein/carbs and working out everyday sometimes twice a day..I was hoping at least some inches would be down, but nope nothing...what the heck is going on? I am drinking all my water 8 cups if not morea day...I hate the process of losing weight, it can be heartbreaking when you try so hard and feel like you are not accomplishing anything.. But I am not going to give up, I will work harder then ever to get this weight off and down.

Yesturday was a very frustrating day for all of us, we were all grumpy, Derek and I were annoying eachother, everything went wrong, from the toilet overflowing to me almost breaking Reiko's leg, it was just one of those days where everything went wrong from the get go..so at least today feels like a better day here. I am going to play hide and seek with Kai soon and try to keep Reiko busy..going to try and get as much energy out of Kai as possible.

Last night Derek and I watched the finale of Spartacus, that show is soo awesome, I cannot wait for the next season. It has lots of blood, gore and sex..it is definitely an adult show, but the story lines are great..

so any ideas on what I am doing wrong with this weight loss thing? last time I ate this good without much working out I lost like 7lbs in 2 weeks..and now nothing...I must be doing something wrong here...

Again, all my prayers and positive thoughts are going out to everyone who has been devastated in Japan. Now they are talking about possible Nuclear Meltdowns and I cannot imagine what this means for everyone there..this is like a never ending nightmare for them and so many people around the world. I can only hope the disasters end soon and they get a break from all this. Its going to be such a long recovery for them as it is. I think about how many children were lost because of this, how many parents had to watch helplessly and how many people lost so many loved ones, they say the death toll is looking to be about 1300, but I can't imagine it being that low of a number when you look at the pictures..It looks like armagedon there...My heartbreaks for everyone there.

Take Care and please pray for everyone in need there.

Jess