THE CHAIR ARRIVED!!

And it is wonderful! It is amazing the independence it gives Reiko! I can actually give him real food because he is sitting up without hurting himself and it is much easier to feed him. So today he had strawberries, banana and cherrios, all cut up of course, except for the cheerios. And he did wonderful, he doesn't eat to much yet, but he is just learning how to pick things up as well, he never got to really do that before. He seems really happy and talk-a-tive him his chair as well, he is really acting his age in it!



eating breakfast!

It arrived shortly after my post yesturday and along with the chair was a bunch of clothing from another OI kiddo named Kaleb, his mom Marie-Helene sent them to me, she was saying "he needs to have real clothes, so he won't be in pj's all the time!" and I couldn't agree more, so yesturday Derek got him all dressed up and he even wore shoes yesturday! Of course I didn't take a picture though, but maybe I will dress him up the same tonight for Oma's and Derek's birthday dinner. I am just soo very very happy the chair is finally here, this is just what he needed!

I was looking at my blog stats today and I cannot believe that my blog has been read 810 times since I started it! How crazy is that? I didn't think anyone would ever read my blog, I didn't think I was a good writer and I didn't think my life would be that interesting lol. It is amazing when I look at where the people are reading from as well, Germany, Singapore, Mexico, Sweden, United States, Canada, UK, Poland, Maylasia,Italy and France!! WOW!! Thank you to everyone that does read my blog.

Over the year that we have had Reiko, ok almost year, people in my family have often been asked why we kept Reiko, some more condescending then others, and of course the people never ask me, but here is the reason.

Reiko was loved the minute We knew I was pregnant, we tried for him, we wanted him before we had him. When we found out something was wrong, well we weren't thinking it was going to be OI, we were told he was going to die, and we knew that no matter what we were keeping him, especially in the chance that they were wrong, and we also knew we were in it for the long haul no matter what. When he was born, we were honestly soo damn thankful it was OI, because that meant he was going to live! But as the breaks began when he was in the NICU I began to feel so guilty, one day I came up to the floor and before I even got off the elevator I could hear him screaming, I could hear my 3 week old baby scream in utter terror with pain, I ran into his room, I knew it was him, and when I got in there, my fear was confirmed, he had broken his arm some how, and he was in alot of pain..I sat down beside him and I cried, and I apologized over and over again to him, And for that split moment I felt this horrible guilt that I did carry him to term and he had to go through this the rest of the life. that was the day I called my mother crying like crazy and was inconsolable. When I went back to the room, I went in and he wasn't crying anymore, his pain meds had kicked in and he smiled at me, as if to say Mommy it will be all right. I didn't ever regret keeping him after that, I just felt sorry for him that this was what he would have to deal with the rest of his life. Now I have honestly gotten used to it, which is an awful thing really, I don't regret or feel to guilty anymore, because I look at the other kids and see that they do have these wonderful lives and they are generally very happy, smart, confident people who don't take things/life for granted. And If anything, this little boy, who has every piece of my heart, has taught not only me but so many people so many things in his first year of life, he will make all our lives better because he is special and important and he is worth having a life, even though he is not perfect. 
Pain is relative people, if you don't know any different, then why would I take away his life?
So I hope that answers anyones questions as to why we were so selfish as to keep him. And yes it was partly selfish, I didn't want to give up my baby because some doctors thought there was something wrong.

Tomorrow is the big day, Derek's Birthday, which means a night to ourselves baby!! We are going to go out for supper and see a movie, then we will come home and sleep alot, because we can lol. I hope he has a wonderful birthday. I am so excited to have this night with him, I hope everything goes as planned!

Last night was Zumba, I love it so freaking much, it is incredibly fun..but Stacey had us do a a new leg workout full of Lunges, and OH MY GOODNESS!! My legs are pretty sore today, HELL they were last night. It was a good workout that is for sure! It will give my butt a nice lift lol. Ok, time to go for another day, have a good one. Take Care

Jess