GRRRR...

Warning: I am grumpy today, so I am ranting....


What the heck is with toddlers? he does not listen, he grabs, hits, screams and drives me crazy! Kai is seriously getting on my nerves, he is getting this awful attitude, he does not eat what we make him, he wants junk food and has fits constantly, he hits, he screams when he doesn't get what he wants no matter what it is and where we are! Everything is a freaking challenge with him somedays and I am so sick of not being listened to....FAAACCCCKKKK!!! He is already in time out, right now as I type this out...He asked for oatmeal, made it for him, refuses to eat it and wants chocolate milk..I do not think so buddy! He does this all the time with pretty much every meal, other places he eats well but at home, he hardly eats anything and its not bad cooking, its him wanting the bad stuff...and I refuse to give in! He had a fit and hit me this morning when I was done going for a freaking pee, because he wanted me to have another pee! WTH???? He had another fit because I took the kleenex's away when he was just putting them in his toes for fun and I am using them. He yells all the time at me and erggg I am just done today, done. Last night he went to bed at 6 because he had a tantrum and hit me hard on my face, it took about 10 minutes of him going crazy for me to get his pjs, pull up and meds for his cold and he was going nuts! I need him to just freaking behave for a day, especially a day when I am sick!!! And I could really really use my own bed for a night Kai, 1 freaking night in my bed by myself would be freaking fantastic! AND WHY CAN'T I STOP SAYING FREAKING????

I am sick, it was bound to happen with Kai sneezing and coughing in my face every few minutes, of course after he does that he remembers to sneeze or cough in his elbow..thank Kai! Reiko is still vomitting and has a fever, but it came down with tylenol. I need a break for a day, a day to just be sick and be alone and not hear babies or toddlers crying, a day with no worries, a day where I dont have to worry about a break or a hospital visit to deal with sicknesses, a day where there are no chores and no cartoons...I want a day to listen to music, to dance, to sing, to laugh at stupid movies and watch my scary movies, a day to enjoy with my husband and have time alone with him for once, a day to ourselves, quiet time!

I am just going to be in a horrible mood today, I can feel it, been up since 5am with Kai and didn't sleep well since I have this damn cold...I want to just be alone today and to let myself feel sorry for myself for once...I hate today..I really do.

Ok ranting over, now I am going to let Kai out of his room, and hope for no more tantrums, then I will pick up Reiko and hope he doesn't puke on me yet again and then I will put on a smile and get over myself.

Take care.
Jess