Today I started off the morning folding laundry and began to watch 127 hours and then Oma dropped off Kai because he missed me and wanted to come home, well he got home and his attitude changed completely, he was angry and yelling and he even purposefully woke up Reiko and scared him by doing so, which made Reiko scream so hard I thought maybe Kai had hit him, but he just doesn't like to be startled because of his pain. My mother in law and I could not figure out his mood change, it was so drastic and honestly awful. I instantly got my headache back from last night and felt stressed. But he finally calmed down after he was almost sent to bed and he cuddled with Oma before she left, and afterwards he was pretty good all day. I don't get toddlers, they are very confusing creatures.
So I finally finished 127 hours this afternoon while Kai watched Strawberry Shortcake and Reiko slept and it was a good movie, James Franco did a good job portraying the guy, at least in my opinion he did. I watched another movie last night, My soul to keep, it was a good horror movie, scared me a few times. I love horror movies to bits, I could watch Nightmare on Elm Street everyday, I love ghost movies anything scary. My mom stopped by before work again today and she had bought me some eye makeup, she gets me, she has the same love of makeup as I do, so it was very sweet of her to surprise me with that. the 26th is her birthday and I hope she likes her gift. I have never mentioned how close I have been to losing my mom, she had her first set of heartattacks at 37 years old, 3 in 24 hours, a doctor overdosed her on Estrogen, and he got away with it. about 5 years later she had 2 more heartattacks, this time she had to have a double bypass. It was horrible to see her go through that, especially since her and I are extremely close. I pray that she still has a long life a head of her.
I gave Reiko a bath today, he badly needed it, soo stinky!! But even though I did a plastic bag around his cast with waterproof tape, it still got wet, so I had to take it off and wouldn't you know it, he starting flinging his leg around with ease. this is the break he got in Montreal, so I am assuming it is pretty healed now, and he is enjoying having one less cast. I tried to see if he could have his other leg unsplinted, but he still cried with it. So I resplinted it and his arm is still splinted. But he did enjoy his bath at least. Tuesday we go to see his Orthopeadic Doctor, Dr. Bartley, I wanted her to see how he is healing with all these new fractures, her receptionist was going to try to set me up with her collegue, but I refused because he was the first ortho we saw and he had the worst bedside manner ever, almost broke Reiko's leg because he didn't care and did not have his best interest at heart what so ever. So thankfully, she was able to fit us in with her.
I am kinda having a selfish day today, I am feeling sorry for myself and Derek that we did not wait longer to have kids, we never travelled, we never go out to have fun and looking at all our friends our age, our lives seem so miniscule..I love our boys, but somedays I would really really like to just be Jessica again, and be with Derek, not daddy. Someday we will get to do those fun things again, just right now is stressful and hard and we are still adjusting to being parents of a very special needs child. I wouldn't trade my boys for anything, but if only I could go back for just a day to highschool when things were simple and Derek and I had no worries. Ok the self pity is over with, just had to get it out. It feels pathetic and like I should be ashamed for feeling this way, but its the truth.
Time for bed, try to get some sleep and I will see if Kai stays in his own bed tonight.
Take care,
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| MOM, Laura(sister), me, DAD and Moxy, many christmas's ago, before kids. |
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| mom and I Canada Day 2010, she was holding Reiko |
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