When it rains...

You know how it goes...

Kai fell on Reiko this morning, he is excited to see Grandma and was walking backwards talking and he fell on Reiko who was in his bouncy chair. Kai instantly knew he had hurt him and it broke my heart as he kept saying "I'm so sorry mommy, I'm so sorry Daddy" It breaks my heart that he has to know that he can cause him fractures. Reiko was crying very hard, Kai landed on his already broken leg, so I gave Reiko a bath and he was instantly happier, I made it full enough for him to just float his legs,and he felt better. I then gave him diazapam to control any spasms he might endure while I wrapped his leg up. It was his first time being given that, he was loopy within a few minutes. He handled the splinting well and then had a nap, he is now sleeping in our room at night in his play pen cause their room is much to warm, and we installed the air conditioner today. I think I may look into getting a a/c for their room, there are ones out there that do not need to go in the window and I think that would be good for them. My mom is taking Kai for the night so that will make things easier tonight. Its scorching hot right now, one of the things I hate about summer. I don't think Reiko likes it either. I cannot imagine being covered in ace wraps all the way from your foot to your chest in this heat...ughhh...He is quite grumpy because we are not moving him much, trying to keep in comfortable because moving him still hurts him, he doesn't understand it though and just thinks we wont pick him up, and when I do pick him up he is still grumpy...this OI is a horrible disease and its the days when he does go through everything that I can't believe our lives turned out this way. Thankfully I do have this amazing support system of other OI parents who go through this everyday as well, and then the people in our lives who just love us through it all. Thank you to everyone who is there for us and makes it easier.

My weight loss has been awful, I gained back everything I lost, I hardly work out, my eating is crap and I feel so lost with it. I was doing amazing and then it just stopped and I don't know why I can't get back into it. I am very disappointed in myself, and I feel like I must look disgusting to my husband, let alone other people. We went to the beach yesturday and it didn't make me feel to any better.

Kai is sitting beside me right now, and my heart is just feeling overloaded with love...its funny how he can drive me freaking batty, but one look at him and I am just over the moon.

Ok have a good one. Take Care
Jessica